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 I sure hope everyone had a wonderful thanksgiving. Wednesday as I was getting ready to leave for work, I found myself compilating suicide, because I lost my mother 6 years ago this past June and my Girlfriend 4 years ago this past August. I'm angry that I've been for Giant/Martin's for over 10 years now and watch new hires get promotions and I'm still nothing more than a bagger. Don't get me wrong, I really enjoy working, but I would like to get off of SSDI and pick up extra hours or pick up an extra job. Giant / Martin's has given me opportunities, but getting promoted to a leadership position, not yet. I'm tired of waiting, but I have no choice but to wait. As far as thinking about suicide, I realize that I do have lots of friends and family members to see me through the hard times.  Having a disability isn't easy and it's down unfair, because the career choices aren't as those who don't have mobility issues. I made a mistake of signing up for SSI at 18 and now I'm approaching 50, I wasted a lot of years complaining about having Cerebral Palsy. Of course, I know a lot in my life that I should be thankful, and I am. However, I wish that I had picked out a realistic career instead daydreaming about

Careers that I would have like to have had.